i'm back again, and it's time for the yearly resolutions! Before I jump into that, let's just do a review of my resolution of 2018 :-)
My resolution of 2018 was pretty simple and to the point: to seek improvement in myself.
Now that 2018's just a day from its end, I think i can safely say that I have improved aspects of myself in one way or another. As always, the year was insane. So many things happened: so many people came into my life, some left, I had my 21st, things that I never expected happened to me, etc.
2018 was such. a. ride. I feel like I say this every single year, but it's true! New things happen constantly and I just keep meeting new people, so many new things just happen and I get to experience stuff that I've never experienced before.
I think personally, I've improved in how I've learnt to say no. In the past, I had such trouble saying no to people because I would hate offending them, and I would try to help in any way if I can. But then I've learnt that sometimes, things are just not worth it. You can do it because you're nice, but only do it because you want to. Don't do it because you're afraid of offending the other party, because you'll just 1. be taken advantage of, 2. possibly be unhappy and 3. there is a high probability of it being a recurring thing. If something doesn't sit well with you, and you have the authority to decline, make use of it.
This brings me to a sub point, of learning how to let go. Various situations and incidents happened throughout the year, and I feel like it was because I never knew how to let go until now. Just a few months back, I just wanted everyone I knew to stay in my life in one way or another. I hated seeing someone leave or just disappear because I wanted to be friends with everyone, no matter what happened previously. But then I've learnt that sometimes, it is necessary to let people leave. If they are itching to leave, don't stop them from leaving you. Because that will just bring about unnecessary hurt, complications, and unhappiness. This also means that I've learnt how to leave people, if necessary. It means cutting people off, whether I like it or not. I only have this amount of time, and I can't spend it all on people who aren't worth my attention.
In 2018 I've also done things that I've never done before:
throwing my 21st party
going overseas with friends
had a professional attachment with sph
be a japanese tour guide
work at a restaurant / bar
learn korean and japanese
remodelled my entire room, myself
went on a clean diet; almost died
took mods with friends
focused more on summerlilies
started putting on makeup
paid more attention to my dressing (and that includes heels)
went to JB with just *one* friend
planned a family trip to J A P A N
more open-minded wrt spending
sounds like 2018 was a smashing year. and it was!
so this finally brings me to my 2019 resolutions. To be honest, I haven't even thought about it until this very present moment, as I'm typing this. 2018 was such an insane year so I don't even know what should I expect for 2019. I'm sure that on 31 December 2019, I'll be sat behind my laptop reading this very post (like how I just sat down to read my 2017 post that I wrote about my 2018 resolutions), and then thinking back about how naive I was in 2017. LMAO. But yes, 2019 will be crazy because I'll be graduating, getting a full time job, and properly working till I retire. Oh my god. If you were a reader since the very very start (which, obviously, I doubt so because I started blogging in 2007), you'd be able to see how I've grown and matured over the 11 years of blogging (hOLY CRAP) and perhaps you'd feel like a proud parent because now your figurative daughter is going out to work, full-time, in 2019. Wow.
But ok I've digressed. It's still a bad habit of mine :") Bringing back to my resolutions for 2019! I think it'll be to learn how to prioritise. Not just schoolwork or work, but also in terms of social interactions and how I generally decide to spend my time. I will have to learn how to be efficient with my time, and not give too much attention to one particular thing.
Another resolution would be to focus more on summerlilies. I've been trying harder to grow it in the later part of 2018, and I will want to work even harder on it for 2019! It's my baby and I really want myself to improve more in calligraphy as well.
And this also brings me to juggling relationships. Relationships in terms of friendships, work relationships, and romantic relationships. There is *so* much work to be put into it! I still find it very difficult to balance a friendship and a work relationship, and I think it's high time for me to learn the best way to do it.
I think these are the resolutions that I have for 2019! Oh, and also try to hit 46kg. LMAO but ok that's not very high up in my priority list and I honestly don't think I'll be working out religiously next year. Maybe I would? But I highly doubt it. :')
i'm back again, and it's time for the yearly resolutions! Before I jump into that, let's just do a review of my resolution of 2018 :-)
My resolution of 2018 was pretty simple and to the point: to seek improvement in myself.
Now that 2018's just a day from its end, I think i can safely say that I have improved aspects of myself in one way or another. As always, the year was insane. So many things happened: so many people came into my life, some left, I had my 21st, things that I never expected happened to me, etc.
2018 was such. a. ride. I feel like I say this every single year, but it's true! New things happen constantly and I just keep meeting new people, so many new things just happen and I get to experience stuff that I've never experienced before.
I think personally, I've improved in how I've learnt to say no. In the past, I had such trouble saying no to people because I would hate offending them, and I would try to help in any way if I can. But then I've learnt that sometimes, things are just not worth it. You can do it because you're nice, but only do it because you want to. Don't do it because you're afraid of offending the other party, because you'll just 1. be taken advantage of, 2. possibly be unhappy and 3. there is a high probability of it being a recurring thing. If something doesn't sit well with you, and you have the authority to decline, make use of it.
This brings me to a sub point, of learning how to let go. Various situations and incidents happened throughout the year, and I feel like it was because I never knew how to let go until now. Just a few months back, I just wanted everyone I knew to stay in my life in one way or another. I hated seeing someone leave or just disappear because I wanted to be friends with everyone, no matter what happened previously. But then I've learnt that sometimes, it is necessary to let people leave. If they are itching to leave, don't stop them from leaving you. Because that will just bring about unnecessary hurt, complications, and unhappiness. This also means that I've learnt how to leave people, if necessary. It means cutting people off, whether I like it or not. I only have this amount of time, and I can't spend it all on people who aren't worth my attention.
In 2018 I've also done things that I've never done before:
throwing my 21st party
going overseas with friends
had a professional attachment with sph
be a japanese tour guide
work at a restaurant / bar
learn korean and japanese
remodelled my entire room, myself
went on a clean diet; almost died
took mods with friends
focused more on summerlilies
started putting on makeup
paid more attention to my dressing (and that includes heels)
went to JB with just *one* friend
planned a family trip to J A P A N
more open-minded wrt spending
sounds like 2018 was a smashing year. and it was!
so this finally brings me to my 2019 resolutions. To be honest, I haven't even thought about it until this very present moment, as I'm typing this. 2018 was such an insane year so I don't even know what should I expect for 2019. I'm sure that on 31 December 2019, I'll be sat behind my laptop reading this very post (like how I just sat down to read my 2017 post that I wrote about my 2018 resolutions), and then thinking back about how naive I was in 2017. LMAO. But yes, 2019 will be crazy because I'll be graduating, getting a full time job, and properly working till I retire. Oh my god. If you were a reader since the very very start (which, obviously, I doubt so because I started blogging in 2007), you'd be able to see how I've grown and matured over the 11 years of blogging (hOLY CRAP) and perhaps you'd feel like a proud parent because now your figurative daughter is going out to work, full-time, in 2019. Wow.
But ok I've digressed. It's still a bad habit of mine :") Bringing back to my resolutions for 2019! I think it'll be to learn how to prioritise. Not just schoolwork or work, but also in terms of social interactions and how I generally decide to spend my time. I will have to learn how to be efficient with my time, and not give too much attention to one particular thing.
Another resolution would be to focus more on summerlilies. I've been trying harder to grow it in the later part of 2018, and I will want to work even harder on it for 2019! It's my baby and I really want myself to improve more in calligraphy as well.
And this also brings me to juggling relationships. Relationships in terms of friendships, work relationships, and romantic relationships. There is *so* much work to be put into it! I still find it very difficult to balance a friendship and a work relationship, and I think it's high time for me to learn the best way to do it.
I think these are the resolutions that I have for 2019! Oh, and also try to hit 46kg. LMAO but ok that's not very high up in my priority list and I honestly don't think I'll be working out religiously next year. Maybe I would? But I highly doubt it. :')
Situated in the sunny island of Singapore, Jolene recently (is 2 years considered recent?) graduated from university and is now working in a job she never expected herself to hold. Besides having frequent quarter-life crises, she also indulges in video games, anime, and aesthetic korean girls documenting their life in vlogs.
Although not as eloquent with words, she still aims to try her best to bring across her thoughts to the Internet.
