NEW BLOGSKIN IS UP as you can see! (: This time I am so darn lazy so I just nicked one from blogskins.com (took me about half an hour to just SCOUT for this blogskin- it's so well-hidden!) much to the disappointment of Terence and Wan Ting, I suppose. Whooooops, my bad. But well I guess you guys should understand a little bit as well, since this year is THE YEAR and all.
I'm quite satisfied with my 'aboout me' page even though it absolutely makes no sense and just shows how incoherent I am. If you can even use it on a person. But hey, I managed to write about a page of myself! I AM SO PROUD *grins widely* Oh yeah and I took down the cbox because it was so damn annoying to see people (or are they BOTS?) spamming it and it takes me a while to find Wan Ting's text every. single. time. Did your voice make cool little pauses? Mine did. Hahahahaha.
Anyways, it's page... NINE OF THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY-FIVE! Yes I spelt that out because I can. Tomorrow it will be someone's birthday and I'm not sure how am I going to behave tomorrow *le sigh* Things have been really messed up (it shows, look at my eye bags!) and I don't know what's going to happen this year. Everything is just... Uncertain. I can't guarantee that I can get good grades, I can't guarantee that I am going to enjoy the process, and I can't guarantee that tomorrow will not be awkward between us (I really, really hope so- ohmygod). But I am sure that I will try my best.
Just like what coach said (I am in Dance, not in softball or whatever we have this camp thing whereby the trainers were called coach), we have to slay the giants before it gets bigger and bigger. I didn't dare to share my fear with everyone, but yet I am sharing it here, on the world wide web. My fear, is the fear of uncertainty. I don't know what will happen in the next ten minutes, two days, one month or a year. And I'm afraid of the future. I am afraid that I can't live up to my parents' expectations because of my results. I feel really pressured because the people all around me are better, and smarter. And I feel uncertain because I don't know if I can live up to the expectations. And that, is what is holding me back.
There. I said it. Do I feel better? Maybe. Time will tell, I guess. But I want to applaud Terence for being the first one to sit on the hot seat to share about his fears. That is something that I don't think that I can, nor most people can do. Good job!
(: This is a long blog post so Wan Ting you'd better cherish it! HAHAHAHAHA
NEW BLOGSKIN IS UP as you can see! (: This time I am so darn lazy so I just nicked one from blogskins.com (took me about half an hour to just SCOUT for this blogskin- it's so well-hidden!) much to the disappointment of Terence and Wan Ting, I suppose. Whooooops, my bad. But well I guess you guys should understand a little bit as well, since this year is THE YEAR and all.
I'm quite satisfied with my 'aboout me' page even though it absolutely makes no sense and just shows how incoherent I am. If you can even use it on a person. But hey, I managed to write about a page of myself! I AM SO PROUD *grins widely* Oh yeah and I took down the cbox because it was so damn annoying to see people (or are they BOTS?) spamming it and it takes me a while to find Wan Ting's text every. single. time. Did your voice make cool little pauses? Mine did. Hahahahaha.
Anyways, it's page... NINE OF THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY-FIVE! Yes I spelt that out because I can. Tomorrow it will be someone's birthday and I'm not sure how am I going to behave tomorrow *le sigh* Things have been really messed up (it shows, look at my eye bags!) and I don't know what's going to happen this year. Everything is just... Uncertain. I can't guarantee that I can get good grades, I can't guarantee that I am going to enjoy the process, and I can't guarantee that tomorrow will not be awkward between us (I really, really hope so- ohmygod). But I am sure that I will try my best.
Just like what coach said (I am in Dance, not in softball or whatever we have this camp thing whereby the trainers were called coach), we have to slay the giants before it gets bigger and bigger. I didn't dare to share my fear with everyone, but yet I am sharing it here, on the world wide web. My fear, is the fear of uncertainty. I don't know what will happen in the next ten minutes, two days, one month or a year. And I'm afraid of the future. I am afraid that I can't live up to my parents' expectations because of my results. I feel really pressured because the people all around me are better, and smarter. And I feel uncertain because I don't know if I can live up to the expectations. And that, is what is holding me back.
There. I said it. Do I feel better? Maybe. Time will tell, I guess. But I want to applaud Terence for being the first one to sit on the hot seat to share about his fears. That is something that I don't think that I can, nor most people can do. Good job!
(: This is a long blog post so Wan Ting you'd better cherish it! HAHAHAHAHA
Situated in the sunny island of Singapore, Jolene recently (is 2 years considered recent?) graduated from university and is now working in a job she never expected herself to hold. Besides having frequent quarter-life crises, she also indulges in video games, anime, and aesthetic korean girls documenting their life in vlogs.
Although not as eloquent with words, she still aims to try her best to bring across her thoughts to the Internet.
