Acceptance is the fact or state of bring accepted or acceptable. How many people wish to be accepted anywhere? Everyone. Even me. And maybe even you. I don't know.
It's weird how the class always manages to split into different cliques naturally. I'm not sure whether it is because of our age, generation or gender? You somehow see guys not really clique-y compared to the girls who take it to the extreme. Weird, but mostly true. Then just because of these cliques there will be major class politics and all that. But I'm not here to talk about that. I'm here to talk about acceptance.
Even though you are in a clique, you may not feel fully accepted in the clique. I have experienced that personally and honestly, that feeling sucks. It sucks that everyone seems to be really close in your clique and in spite of being in that clique, you don't really feel that you belong. Surely you must have experienced that once or twice in your life. Oh and have you ever seen major clique with >6 people disbanding before? I have, many times, and they are not the least pretty. No one knows what happened between them, but somehow friends that were called sisters are now called enemies. I think it all boils down to unity.
You always see the clique eating together. Walking together. Going home together. Going to the damn toilet together. Seating together. Doing every single thing together. Sometimes it just goes wayyyy over and it's so extreme that it's scary. But sometimes it's all OTOT and free and easy such that we only appear to be a clique and we aren't really one after all. I think the latter is happening to mine, if it's even called a clique. In my opinion, I think mine is called the 'pair clique'. People pair up with each other and form this 6 people clique.Then they feel like they aren't included in the clique. Okay.
That didn't happen to LOVARTS that consisted of 5 people (odd number that makes it more difficult). We really bonded together really well except that my bond with Jia Ning isn't that strong but oh well. As I was saying, maybe it's because of the foundation. I don't know. In the past I used to dislike two of my clique members (LOL) but after getting to know them I realised that they have their own good points and that I shouldn't judge them because I know that I have a horrid personality too. But it seems like the rest of my clique didn't notice or something.
I can feel that Wu Tong is being left out and that she is hurting on the inside. I try to include her but yet it feels weird and awkward because honestly speaking I don't think I'm all that close with her to that stage. I don't even think I'm close to anyone. You may think that I'm all BFFs with Isabel, but I'm not. Stacia and I hardly have a common topic to talk about and Jia Wen is just weird LOL. Gwendolyn also seems a little bit distant sometimes because she becomes emotional now and then and it's difficult for someone like me to comfort her. So every time during recess, it's like people just split. Gwen will go to noodles, Stacia and Isabel will stick to a stall and buy together while Jia Wen and I just get lost so we resort to the shortest cue. Always. And Wu Tong will be following either one of us, definitely feeling lost as well. Maybe that's the reason why she stays in class sometimes. I don't know, honestly. It's just a hunch, but maybe part of it might be true. I try my best to include everyone but sometimes people are just stubborn and they feel more comfortable sticking with the people that they are close to. Well since we are a clique why don't we try to include everyone and accept each other's flaws? I'm trying.
Acceptance is the fact or state of bring accepted or acceptable. How many people wish to be accepted anywhere? Everyone. Even me. And maybe even you. I don't know.
It's weird how the class always manages to split into different cliques naturally. I'm not sure whether it is because of our age, generation or gender? You somehow see guys not really clique-y compared to the girls who take it to the extreme. Weird, but mostly true. Then just because of these cliques there will be major class politics and all that. But I'm not here to talk about that. I'm here to talk about acceptance.
Even though you are in a clique, you may not feel fully accepted in the clique. I have experienced that personally and honestly, that feeling sucks. It sucks that everyone seems to be really close in your clique and in spite of being in that clique, you don't really feel that you belong. Surely you must have experienced that once or twice in your life. Oh and have you ever seen major clique with >6 people disbanding before? I have, many times, and they are not the least pretty. No one knows what happened between them, but somehow friends that were called sisters are now called enemies. I think it all boils down to unity.
You always see the clique eating together. Walking together. Going home together. Going to the damn toilet together. Seating together. Doing every single thing together. Sometimes it just goes wayyyy over and it's so extreme that it's scary. But sometimes it's all OTOT and free and easy such that we only appear to be a clique and we aren't really one after all. I think the latter is happening to mine, if it's even called a clique. In my opinion, I think mine is called the 'pair clique'. People pair up with each other and form this 6 people clique.Then they feel like they aren't included in the clique. Okay.
That didn't happen to LOVARTS that consisted of 5 people (odd number that makes it more difficult). We really bonded together really well except that my bond with Jia Ning isn't that strong but oh well. As I was saying, maybe it's because of the foundation. I don't know. In the past I used to dislike two of my clique members (LOL) but after getting to know them I realised that they have their own good points and that I shouldn't judge them because I know that I have a horrid personality too. But it seems like the rest of my clique didn't notice or something.
I can feel that Wu Tong is being left out and that she is hurting on the inside. I try to include her but yet it feels weird and awkward because honestly speaking I don't think I'm all that close with her to that stage. I don't even think I'm close to anyone. You may think that I'm all BFFs with Isabel, but I'm not. Stacia and I hardly have a common topic to talk about and Jia Wen is just weird LOL. Gwendolyn also seems a little bit distant sometimes because she becomes emotional now and then and it's difficult for someone like me to comfort her. So every time during recess, it's like people just split. Gwen will go to noodles, Stacia and Isabel will stick to a stall and buy together while Jia Wen and I just get lost so we resort to the shortest cue. Always. And Wu Tong will be following either one of us, definitely feeling lost as well. Maybe that's the reason why she stays in class sometimes. I don't know, honestly. It's just a hunch, but maybe part of it might be true. I try my best to include everyone but sometimes people are just stubborn and they feel more comfortable sticking with the people that they are close to. Well since we are a clique why don't we try to include everyone and accept each other's flaws? I'm trying.
Situated in the sunny island of Singapore, Jolene recently (is 2 years considered recent?) graduated from university and is now working in a job she never expected herself to hold. Besides having frequent quarter-life crises, she also indulges in video games, anime, and aesthetic korean girls documenting their life in vlogs.
Although not as eloquent with words, she still aims to try her best to bring across her thoughts to the Internet.
