I never knew the existence of this term until I started watching Ondo's vlogs, where she described herself as a homebody. I mean, intuitively, I guess a homebody means someone who is the most comfortable and home and chooses to stay at home consciously. A homebody typically likes to stay at home to rest and recharge, and his home is probably his sanctuary. Being a huge fan of Ondo's vlogs, I found myself wanting to become a homebody. Her life is just so simple and easy, and she is able to buy all the weird, unnecessary trinkets and stuff whenever she wants (basically whenever she vlogs she buys stuff and she vlogs like, at least half the week).
Of course, this just made me want many things. Not just wanting to become a homebody like her and be comfortable at home, making a conscious choice to stay at home just because i want to, but also being able to buy things that I want to supplement my life and make me happy (or happier). I do know that what she is portraying obviously isn't very sustainable, especially since I don't have an income like her (she was working FT + vlogging on YT, so that's quite a huge amount of dough that she has right there) and I've just started working. Since my first pay, I haven't really spent on anything other than necessities, really - apart from some ezbuy stuff that I bought just yesterday or the day before.
I don't know where this post is going.
My original point was that I was yearning to be like her, and have succeeded doing it for like 2 days, then I gave up because I realised that that kind of life just isn't for me. I need to constantly go out and meet people, meet my friends, meet people whom I love, etc and just spend time and interact with them over a meal or something. Being a homebody just isn't me. And I'm not very sure what to feel about it. Meeting people all the time is going to burn a large hole in my pocket, and that, I guess, is where my income is going ('necessities" aka meals out) vs Ondo's, where she saves more money on food and spend a lot more on aesthetic stuff like wooden spoons and ceramic plates. Oh, and it also helps that she has her own house that she rents. While, yknow, I don't.
So apart from realising that I am not a homebody, I've started vlogging daily - just like Ondo, but I was thinking that I would be going about another perspective where I basically vlog the times when I'm out, instead of being at home and lounging around. So far, so good I guess?
I've started cooking and baking a lot more too, just because they are survival skills and I should really start adulting now. But this also means that I'm paying attention to a lot more things, and I'm starting to want more things and being unnecessarily materialistic.
Again, I don't know where I'm going with this post.
I just want to kind of write my thoughts down, albeit incoherently, because I'm having so much trouble expressing myself recently. I think writing helps me to structure my thoughts better, and allows me to find my words easier. It's just been so weird chatting to people recently - my mind goes all blank and fuzzy and I can't concentrate on conversations as much. The replies that I've been giving also don't really make sense and sometimes they come out so awkwardly I just want to hide in a hole. Things are changing and I don't quite get it.
I never knew the existence of this term until I started watching Ondo's vlogs, where she described herself as a homebody. I mean, intuitively, I guess a homebody means someone who is the most comfortable and home and chooses to stay at home consciously. A homebody typically likes to stay at home to rest and recharge, and his home is probably his sanctuary. Being a huge fan of Ondo's vlogs, I found myself wanting to become a homebody. Her life is just so simple and easy, and she is able to buy all the weird, unnecessary trinkets and stuff whenever she wants (basically whenever she vlogs she buys stuff and she vlogs like, at least half the week).
Of course, this just made me want many things. Not just wanting to become a homebody like her and be comfortable at home, making a conscious choice to stay at home just because i want to, but also being able to buy things that I want to supplement my life and make me happy (or happier). I do know that what she is portraying obviously isn't very sustainable, especially since I don't have an income like her (she was working FT + vlogging on YT, so that's quite a huge amount of dough that she has right there) and I've just started working. Since my first pay, I haven't really spent on anything other than necessities, really - apart from some ezbuy stuff that I bought just yesterday or the day before.
I don't know where this post is going.
My original point was that I was yearning to be like her, and have succeeded doing it for like 2 days, then I gave up because I realised that that kind of life just isn't for me. I need to constantly go out and meet people, meet my friends, meet people whom I love, etc and just spend time and interact with them over a meal or something. Being a homebody just isn't me. And I'm not very sure what to feel about it. Meeting people all the time is going to burn a large hole in my pocket, and that, I guess, is where my income is going ('necessities" aka meals out) vs Ondo's, where she saves more money on food and spend a lot more on aesthetic stuff like wooden spoons and ceramic plates. Oh, and it also helps that she has her own house that she rents. While, yknow, I don't.
So apart from realising that I am not a homebody, I've started vlogging daily - just like Ondo, but I was thinking that I would be going about another perspective where I basically vlog the times when I'm out, instead of being at home and lounging around. So far, so good I guess?
I've started cooking and baking a lot more too, just because they are survival skills and I should really start adulting now. But this also means that I'm paying attention to a lot more things, and I'm starting to want more things and being unnecessarily materialistic.
Again, I don't know where I'm going with this post.
I just want to kind of write my thoughts down, albeit incoherently, because I'm having so much trouble expressing myself recently. I think writing helps me to structure my thoughts better, and allows me to find my words easier. It's just been so weird chatting to people recently - my mind goes all blank and fuzzy and I can't concentrate on conversations as much. The replies that I've been giving also don't really make sense and sometimes they come out so awkwardly I just want to hide in a hole. Things are changing and I don't quite get it.
Situated in the sunny island of Singapore, Jolene recently (is 2 years considered recent?) graduated from university and is now working in a job she never expected herself to hold. Besides having frequent quarter-life crises, she also indulges in video games, anime, and aesthetic korean girls documenting their life in vlogs.
Although not as eloquent with words, she still aims to try her best to bring across her thoughts to the Internet.
