Hello! I know it seems a little bit weird that I'm posting so frequently now - I just need a place to type out what I'm thinking and feeling now because I can't seem to think of a better way.
So I thought about something else again today - about motivation. How does motivation come about? For me, moments like these strike every once in a blue moon (sadly), and when they do they come really late at night - so in the end it amounts to nothing. I have some friends who have this insane amount of motivation and all I see them do is study. Well, procrastination hits me head-on like a truck 95% of the time.
I find myself searching desperately the drive to get something done all the time. I know that I have tasks to do before a certain deadline, but I just can't seem to bring myself to do it because I'm
1. Too lazy
2. Don't see the meaning
3. Simply lack the drive.
I always use the excuse of not having sufficient time to study because of my hectic CCA, and how my weekends are all taken because I have tuition to attend and the list just goes on. The feeling of lying to yourself sucks. I know I am blatantly lying to myself, but yet I accept these excuses with open arms because I simply do not want to do my work or study for a test just around the corner.
There would be severe repercussions if I don't correct this (I know but yet I'm doing anything about it. Seeeeeee), but I'm not sure when will I ever bring myself to change this horrible habit of mine. As are just a few months away and mid years are coming in a month. There isn't time. But I need to make time. However even if I do, I procrastinate. This vicious cycle is tough as heck to break out, and I find myself wanting to get the vigour people have when they are studying. The drive and motivation to keep pushing on because it is necessary and it bears fruits of labour.
Hello! I know it seems a little bit weird that I'm posting so frequently now - I just need a place to type out what I'm thinking and feeling now because I can't seem to think of a better way.
So I thought about something else again today - about motivation. How does motivation come about? For me, moments like these strike every once in a blue moon (sadly), and when they do they come really late at night - so in the end it amounts to nothing. I have some friends who have this insane amount of motivation and all I see them do is study. Well, procrastination hits me head-on like a truck 95% of the time.
I find myself searching desperately the drive to get something done all the time. I know that I have tasks to do before a certain deadline, but I just can't seem to bring myself to do it because I'm
1. Too lazy
2. Don't see the meaning
3. Simply lack the drive.
I always use the excuse of not having sufficient time to study because of my hectic CCA, and how my weekends are all taken because I have tuition to attend and the list just goes on. The feeling of lying to yourself sucks. I know I am blatantly lying to myself, but yet I accept these excuses with open arms because I simply do not want to do my work or study for a test just around the corner.
There would be severe repercussions if I don't correct this (I know but yet I'm doing anything about it. Seeeeeee), but I'm not sure when will I ever bring myself to change this horrible habit of mine. As are just a few months away and mid years are coming in a month. There isn't time. But I need to make time. However even if I do, I procrastinate. This vicious cycle is tough as heck to break out, and I find myself wanting to get the vigour people have when they are studying. The drive and motivation to keep pushing on because it is necessary and it bears fruits of labour.
Situated in the sunny island of Singapore, Jolene recently (is 2 years considered recent?) graduated from university and is now working in a job she never expected herself to hold. Besides having frequent quarter-life crises, she also indulges in video games, anime, and aesthetic korean girls documenting their life in vlogs.
Although not as eloquent with words, she still aims to try her best to bring across her thoughts to the Internet.
