No, not sleigh bells signalling the approach of winter. The tolling bells. Of death.
They signal the death of my finals.
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It's been four days into finals period and it still hasn't sunk in my head how real it is to be taking examinations in the enormous hall and what comes out on the puny computer screen at the end of the semester signals how well badly I've done... And it continues to haunt me until I graduate (if I do graduate). My life's a wreck.
I have a paper tomorrow morning and here I am, typing away at 10:22pm because I'm way too stressed out that I'm not stressed out enough.
... Do you get what I mean?
I don't feel the anxiety to study my ass off for finals because it feels like school just started and I am not ready to take what seems like another set of A Levels(!!!). Usually after three to four months of studying, you will sit for a test. A tiny test that has no impact on your graduation cert - it just leaves a little mark on your report card which doesn't have much significance in the future. But boy, finals is the real deal. It's the shit. It's something that either makes you or breaks you. And I have to take this what, six times throughout Uni?
God.
I feel like I haven't fully adjusted into Uni life and with everything that happened throughout the months, I am not ready.
No, not sleigh bells signalling the approach of winter. The tolling bells. Of death.
They signal the death of my finals.
-
It's been four days into finals period and it still hasn't sunk in my head how real it is to be taking examinations in the enormous hall and what comes out on the puny computer screen at the end of the semester signals how well badly I've done... And it continues to haunt me until I graduate (if I do graduate). My life's a wreck.
I have a paper tomorrow morning and here I am, typing away at 10:22pm because I'm way too stressed out that I'm not stressed out enough.
... Do you get what I mean?
I don't feel the anxiety to study my ass off for finals because it feels like school just started and I am not ready to take what seems like another set of A Levels(!!!). Usually after three to four months of studying, you will sit for a test. A tiny test that has no impact on your graduation cert - it just leaves a little mark on your report card which doesn't have much significance in the future. But boy, finals is the real deal. It's the shit. It's something that either makes you or breaks you. And I have to take this what, six times throughout Uni?
God.
I feel like I haven't fully adjusted into Uni life and with everything that happened throughout the months, I am not ready.
Situated in the sunny island of Singapore, Jolene recently (is 2 years considered recent?) graduated from university and is now working in a job she never expected herself to hold. Besides having frequent quarter-life crises, she also indulges in video games, anime, and aesthetic korean girls documenting their life in vlogs.
Although not as eloquent with words, she still aims to try her best to bring across her thoughts to the Internet.
