hi all! It's been ages since I last blogged - I actually missed out the entirety of June, holy crap - and I think my writing skills (were there even any, at all?) has become rusty and I have to get back into the habit of blogging again.
But the thought of blogging just came to me today when I was doing my night run - it was an impromptu decision, really. Today has just been a day of being alone: no one to eat lunch with, and no one to eat dinner with too. Not that it makes me full of sadness but it was just a really stark contrast as compared to last week when I went out every single day from Monday to Sunday without fail (and spent a crapload of money too, ugh). I think it's really difficult to get alone time nowadays without feeling weird? As in, it's hard to decline people when they ask you out for a meal or a get together because that would just make you seem like somewhat of a social recluse so it just really gets tough sometimes to have some nice, quiet alone time. I don't complain when people ask me out though - I truly enjoy being in the company of friends and I'm honoured that you guys ask me out :') Being a serial extrovert, it's hard to enjoy alone time. Yes it is definitely needed, but I just can't see how much I need it until I actually have it and spend my time just being solo. I'm always in the need of company (read: needy af) and I love talking to people! So much so that when I'm alone I just talk to myself and scare my mom when she suddenly pops up and walks into my room or something; lmao.
But yep because of the alone time I had today, I had some quality time to myself! I picked up Wattpad again - it comes in phases, really - and went for a night run. Okay, more of an evening run. I reached the reservoir around 730 and start my run! It was really windy (not breezy, but actually windy) and the wind was blowing in my direction so it felt so good just working out when the sun was setting with a sense of tranquility all around me. The night around the reservoir is a lot quieter and peaceful as compared to the mornings when it's just filled with people, young and old, strolling or doing their runs. I think night running has opened my eyes to a whole new dimension (lmao, such dramatics)! I had this indescribable feeling when my feet were pounding on the gravel around the reservoir - it just felt like I could live in that moment - and I want to continue living in that moment, yknow? It's the perfect time for you to get swarmed by your thoughts - those thoughts that have been gnawing at you constantly throughout the day or some issues that you have been thinking and deliberating about for the longest of times just kinda surface and this peacefulness all around you makes it such a great environment for you to think in. It's like spiritual time with yourself. I know I sound like such a weirdo preaching about night running but I swear, it's the clearest that I've been in a long time and I really enjoyed my night run! Not to mention it's such a win win since I manage to stay healthy in the process too :)
Work has been such a whirlwind, I swear. My work has been piling up to the heavens and I feel like I can never ever finish work properly HAHA especially today when I was trying to rush out my end reports for campaigns but my boss kept asking me, "Jolene, do you have time to spare?" and gave me like so many more reports to churn out :') But well time did pass really quickly which I guess is the silver lining? I just really miss blogging and just chatting with you guys (not sure if anyone reads this but oh well) because it makes me think more coherently and kinda sorts out my thoughts a lot more? I feel like without blogging I have lost this sense of clarity that I used to have and I have a harder time articulating my thoughts and feelings. With that being said, I'm back! :)
hi all! It's been ages since I last blogged - I actually missed out the entirety of June, holy crap - and I think my writing skills (were there even any, at all?) has become rusty and I have to get back into the habit of blogging again.
But the thought of blogging just came to me today when I was doing my night run - it was an impromptu decision, really. Today has just been a day of being alone: no one to eat lunch with, and no one to eat dinner with too. Not that it makes me full of sadness but it was just a really stark contrast as compared to last week when I went out every single day from Monday to Sunday without fail (and spent a crapload of money too, ugh). I think it's really difficult to get alone time nowadays without feeling weird? As in, it's hard to decline people when they ask you out for a meal or a get together because that would just make you seem like somewhat of a social recluse so it just really gets tough sometimes to have some nice, quiet alone time. I don't complain when people ask me out though - I truly enjoy being in the company of friends and I'm honoured that you guys ask me out :') Being a serial extrovert, it's hard to enjoy alone time. Yes it is definitely needed, but I just can't see how much I need it until I actually have it and spend my time just being solo. I'm always in the need of company (read: needy af) and I love talking to people! So much so that when I'm alone I just talk to myself and scare my mom when she suddenly pops up and walks into my room or something; lmao.
But yep because of the alone time I had today, I had some quality time to myself! I picked up Wattpad again - it comes in phases, really - and went for a night run. Okay, more of an evening run. I reached the reservoir around 730 and start my run! It was really windy (not breezy, but actually windy) and the wind was blowing in my direction so it felt so good just working out when the sun was setting with a sense of tranquility all around me. The night around the reservoir is a lot quieter and peaceful as compared to the mornings when it's just filled with people, young and old, strolling or doing their runs. I think night running has opened my eyes to a whole new dimension (lmao, such dramatics)! I had this indescribable feeling when my feet were pounding on the gravel around the reservoir - it just felt like I could live in that moment - and I want to continue living in that moment, yknow? It's the perfect time for you to get swarmed by your thoughts - those thoughts that have been gnawing at you constantly throughout the day or some issues that you have been thinking and deliberating about for the longest of times just kinda surface and this peacefulness all around you makes it such a great environment for you to think in. It's like spiritual time with yourself. I know I sound like such a weirdo preaching about night running but I swear, it's the clearest that I've been in a long time and I really enjoyed my night run! Not to mention it's such a win win since I manage to stay healthy in the process too :)
Work has been such a whirlwind, I swear. My work has been piling up to the heavens and I feel like I can never ever finish work properly HAHA especially today when I was trying to rush out my end reports for campaigns but my boss kept asking me, "Jolene, do you have time to spare?" and gave me like so many more reports to churn out :') But well time did pass really quickly which I guess is the silver lining? I just really miss blogging and just chatting with you guys (not sure if anyone reads this but oh well) because it makes me think more coherently and kinda sorts out my thoughts a lot more? I feel like without blogging I have lost this sense of clarity that I used to have and I have a harder time articulating my thoughts and feelings. With that being said, I'm back! :)
Situated in the sunny island of Singapore, Jolene recently (is 2 years considered recent?) graduated from university and is now working in a job she never expected herself to hold. Besides having frequent quarter-life crises, she also indulges in video games, anime, and aesthetic korean girls documenting their life in vlogs.
Although not as eloquent with words, she still aims to try her best to bring across her thoughts to the Internet.
